no words

I have been sitting on this couch next to my significant other for about 5 hours and we have said all of 3 sentences to each other. How come? I am not really sure what is going on here, but I can say I am not sure it can be fixed.We have been living like this for months, and I don’t understand why.

Let me elaborate a bit. I absolutely love my other half, no doubt. But, I am not blind or dumb to not see that something is missing. When people ask “Oh, how are you two doing?” I want to respond with “AMAZING! COULDN’T BE BETTER.”

But, the sad truth is that I can’t. The response is always, “We’re okay.” That’s not good enough. Is it just the timing? I couldn’t picture life with anyone else, so whats the deal? I don’t want it to end and I won’t let it end, but are we both truly happy?

I can speak for myself, but I cannot speak for him. It sucks, because I feel as though he’s the unhappy one. I don’t know how to get him to tell me the truth. Or am I the unhappy one? That can’t be. I know I am happy. Or do I? I hope it all just boils down to stress. That’s all. I hope it’s nothing else.

This has been the most amazing 5 years of my life and I never want it to end. I just hope he feels the same.

 

 

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One thought on “no words

  1. My thoughts are: Set a “happy example,” and he may follow. Talk don’t point. Sometimes, “silence of golden.” Watch body language. In my opinion, if you are sitting on the couch together, things aren’t as bad as they may seem. He could be sitting across the room, or worse yet, sitting in another room. Just some mentions. I hope since writing this post, you have found a way to say lots more thanks for what you have now, and hope remains alive for the future. Highest and Best!

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